Wow. I've seemed to abandon Livejournal. Here's an update on my spiritual progression, or stand-still, however you'd like to look at it.
I've become very strong in my who I am and how I see things. I've abandoned any kind of label to my spiritual beliefs, and I've stopped recognizing holidays from any particular faith, including Wiccan Sabbats. There's absolutely nothing wrong with recognizing them; I just don't see the point when I don't fit into any particular faith. Indeed, I've inadvertently become more spiritual, as in my path to strict veganism and my fight against animal cruelty, against war, environmental degregation, global poverty and hunger, and other human rights. The Indigo within me has really been becoming apparent.
Because of that, I see the world in a completely differently than the peple around me. And in a way, I've become aware of the fact that I get rather agitated by people who disagree with me. Let me explain this as best as I can. I base my entire life upon one simple rule, and it has two parts: number one, that everything deserves to be respected, because it's all interconnected in one existence. This includes every person (or those without ugly souls), every blade of grass, and every animal. Secondly, everyone has the right to pursue happiness as long as it doesn't harm something else (Wiccan Rede-"An' it harm none, do as ye will"). So, it seems to me that if someone disagrees with me on most issues (with the exclusion of stemcell research and abortion), then they disagree with that fundamental rule, and they thereby try to justify disrespect and human ignorance. I've also learned that not all opinions need to be respected. Opinions embedded in racism and intolerance shouldn't be tolerated. And if all this means that I'm a bigot, so be it.
I've also become very aware of my sexual power, so I've opened myself up to more sexual experience. I know longer categorize myself as any particular sexuality, particularly gay, which most people would understand me to be. I've learned that life, things like sexuality and gender especially, is way to ambigious to be forced into labels and the expectations that come with them. To most people, sexuality is confined as either straight, gay, or bisexual. Yet, I'm "gay" but I'm not afraid to have sex with a girl, just because I enjoy sex. I can't however, be fulfilled in a long term, or even a short term, romantic relationship with a girl, so I'm not "straight" nor "bisexual." I suppose one could call me "sexual," but I see that as an arbitrary label as well.
All I know is that I'm not Human, with the exception of having a human body. I,however, am not perfect. I make my share of mistakes, I learn from them, and I continue to grow.
I apologize for rambling, and the somewhat unclear way of presentiny my thoughts. It's 2:30 in the morning.